It really sucks to say this but, I haven't felt this way ever since A levels ended. In the midst of all that studying frenzy, I always questioned myself what I was studying for. The short term and most practical answer was of course to get into a university. But really, what was I studying so hard for?Everyone harps on stuff like life-long learning, yes, I do agree with that, but ultimately I guess being typical Singaporeans, the stereotype is just to study, get into a good uni, graduate with honours and set off to find a job and work for a few years before you settle down with your other half and start a new life together. Being someone with so much wanderlust and curiousity about everything else that's happening in the world, it just feels like there are too many things for me to grasp, too much information for my now rusty brain to process and too much feelings for me to absorb and truly understand. Everything suddenly feels so overwhelming, and it feels like I'm just being drowned by the crashing waves all around me with no life buoy in sight haha. Maybe I really should have taken a gap year, maybe I should have just went for NUS environmental studies or Biz. But here I am stuck in FASS hahaha contemplating to study either geography or global studies for the next 4 years. What can I do with both degrees right haha aishhhh chances are if you are in FASS it won't be easy finding a job anyway, and even if you do find one, it is most likely that it isn't related to your major LOL. But here I am still frustrated over what to major, thinking that psychology has no good future job prospects (which is very true unless you have a master's degree....), and that studying geography limits me to being a geog cher or doing a govt related job, and global studies is just......a complete question mark :x It's a totally new major and carries so much risk with it if I decide to major in that, plus its a pretty demanding course with its language requirements (I can take Korean and really enjoy it). I really wanted to take global studies because it gave me the flexibility to study modules from all over the faculty, but now the rose-tinted glasses have been lifted off as I found out that there are so many prerequisites for the modules for GL....its really a GL major man giving me so much frustrations before I even study it...but I'm not going to give up since I've wanted this all along. LEGGO PONG you can do this shit (hopefully)
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Jul 26, 2016
Apr 10, 2016
Academic | SMU Discovery Day
I can still vividly remember the mugger life I had just a few months ago while studying for A levels - the lectures/tutorials, the endless tests and mock exams, staying in school to study till 930/10pm, weekly consultations with HODs for econs/geog/maths, and near the end when I only had to go back to NYJC for 1/2 days a week, the 11-10 mugging sessions at Civic Center Starbucks or 10-9 sessions at Woodlands Regional Library. I was just an average mugger and another student thrown in the rat race against time (or actually, against A levels), and looking back now, I know I could have studied much harder and started mugging earlier. While I have my regrets, let's just say all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy, and that's another story for another day.
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Now all that is done and over, and I got back my results about a month ago. I believe that everyone has a set of expectations for themselves and we should not judge when someone who got perhaps 85 rank points say that they are not pleased with their score, even when in the eyes of others the results are already very good and more than capable of securing a place in most university courses. The amount of hard work and effort everyone put in is different, and hence the difference in results. They themselves know how hard they worked for A levels, and I'm sure they are many who feel like their results do not reflect their effort.
As for myself, I was not entirely happy with my results. B for H1 chem when I put in so much effort even after downgrading from H2 chem, makes me feel like I wasted my time on it when I could have spent that time on my H2 subjects instead. On the other hand, B for H2 maths was a complete relief and felt like a present for me, so much that it made me cry after seeing my results. I've been to the pits of hell and I made it back alive. I'm not exaggerating when I say pits of hell haha. I can't find a better phrase than that for 0.3 percentile. Hall of shame maybe? LOL. I can say that I'm not the happiest person with my results, but I can't be more grateful for some grades.
Most typical kiasu people will apply for all the 3 universities in Singapore, get accepted in all 3 and then choose 1 by 1 June. Until then, many places will be hogged and some will only get a place after 1 June. But then again, they have every right to "chope" the places since they worked hard for their results to secure a place, right?
What schools did I apply for?
I was not THAT kiasu and only applied for NUS at first. I was torn between Environmental Studies (my passion, but 70% employment rate plus so limited job scope in SG), Business (stereotyped as the course that if you have good grades just go there for a good paying job in the future) and FASS (econs/geog/global studies/political science/sociology), but eventually I put FASS as my first choice and I got accepted 2 days later. At that point I was contemplating applying for SMU because hey, already got place at NUS right? What for apply for SMU and have to reject NUS/SMU later on and waste $10/$15 respectively? Everyone tells me that the fee is peanuts and nothing compared to what it entitles. But I applied for SMU not because I want to hog 2 places or go around boasting that I got into smu and nus, but because I really couldn't choose between SMU and NUS. I knew from the start that I could not decide yet so I just applied for one, with the intention that maybe getting accepted into NUS will make me give up on SMU or vice versa. But 4 years (and my future) isn't something to play with so here I am writing this post because I got accepted into SMU too and I'M QUITE LOST ON WHICH TO CHOOSE NOW.
SMU Discovery Day
My first thoughts are the same as anyone reading this, "Discover what?? Means you accept me anot??"
I only applied for SMU on the last day of application at 11.30pm and I did not get any news until around 7 days later. I was kind of panicking because I knew they wouldn't reject me as my results were way above the cut off. But hey they are about holistic education right? I thought that this year's pool of applicants were also full of achievements and I was pushed aside by them. But the call came and I was informed that my application was successful and I did not need to attend any interviews, instead I was to attend this SMU Discovery Day that lasted 3 hours. I was about to send in an email to say I wanted to change my first choice to biz but they called me to say I was accepted into School of Economics (SOE) just before I sent in the email. Talk about timing haha maybe its fate. I think that this is their first year of implementation and I found some information on their website at http://admissions.smu.edu.sg/content/smus-commitment-holistic-admissions-faqs !!
To sum up what they mean, interviews are still compulsory except for a select group of shortlisted applicants.
And don't try to fluff your application because I'm very sure that they are more than capable of seeing through what's real and what's not.
So what did we do?
ANYWAYYYYYS, it lasted from 130-430 and it started off with a short talk by the Dean of SOE. It was followed by a 45min mock lecture. The lecture was about auctions and it was pretty interesting. I even got the chance to participate in the lecture as he picked me to be a participant in mini game which was like mock english auction. I think the lecturer was Italian and I did not understand what he was saying at first because of the accent, and hence I was LOST about the first game lol and I over-bidded. When he asked me why I bidded $9.10 when I would lose money (I think I could only resell at $9, I still don't know HAHA) , my mind was literally blank so I said I just want to win the bid LOL. I hope the people there will not remember me as the girl who bids too much because when he gave out acceptance letters, the Dean told me not to overbid next time HAHAHA well now I understand why embarrassing moments can become good memories later on eh :) I understood the second bid better and put my hand down at the right time haha and I'm quite grateful for him picking me because it gave me an experience of how a real lecture would be and my "I just want to win the bid" brought laughter to the room so it wasn't so sian I guess HAHA
We then had a short break and a sharing session by 2 alumni and 2 current students, and it ended with a tea reception.
SMU or NUS?
Before I went for this Discovery Day thing I was actually more inclined to go NUS. Being someone who is easily swayed, SMU did a good job in swaying me...ALOT. (maybe that's what the Discovery Day is supposed to do lol)
The pros of NUS are the inverse of the cons of SMU. How I wish I can take their respective pros and cons and make a new school haha. You know, be Hannah Montana, and get the best of both worlds. Hahaha but I ain't no Hannah Montana and I can only choose one :( I feel that no matter which school I choose, I'll definitely have some regrets.
NUS
+ More globally recognised if I ever want to work overseas (which I really do...)
+ Easier to get honours (3.2/5 vs SMU 3.4/4)
+ Variety of majors to choose from if you still do not know what to major in
+ Hall/College life
+ Read modules outside your faculty (idk if this is a plus or minus point actually)
+ Grade-free 1st sem
+ Feels more homely/friendly? idk
+ Cheaper by arnd $10000
+ Near to fries, can work there after school hehe
- The perceived dumping ground lol
- Lecture-tutorial style is boring. I skipped lectures in JC that were taught by horrible lecturers , and I'm sure I will in university too. Even if I don't, I might be zoning out 50% of the time oops.
- Increasing class participation. They may be trying to learn from SMU, but I've read lots of blogs where people complain that this makes others talk for the sake of talking and it wastes alot of time.
SMU
+ More opportunities for overseas exchanges/OCIP/internships
+Very interactive pedagogy that forces you to focus in class so you don't waste money skipping lectures unlike NUS (I experienced it first-hand HAHA)
+ 7 Modules = 2ND MAJOR in SMU vs MINOR in NUS (what even nus??)
+ Each lesson is 3hr long, and mostly only 5 lessons per week = 3/4 DAYS OF SCHOOL per week only (might be same in NUS if cram lecture/tutorials or skip lectures lol)
+ Become more confident and articulate because of endless presentations
+ Best career centre
+ Very accessible location in town
+ Interesting modules like grooming and CAT that NUS does not have and are pretty essential in the working world
- Too focused on career (but it's a management uni afterall, and it's realistic I guess)
- Cut-throat competitiveness (but everywhere is competitive right?)
- Social sciences not as strong as FASS but if I'm doing only 2nd major in sociology/political science I think it's ok?
- More ex by $10000
SMU may be more ex but the extra $10000 will be balanced out if I stay in NUS hall/college, and I feel really blessed when my parents tell me not to worry about the school fees or let it be a factor to consider. Distance from my house to both NUS and SMU is about the same so that's out too. I guess it really boils down to what I want to gain from university life, which I am not really sure yet sigh. If I want to do econs, then I will just choose SMU and do it with something I like (pol sci/psych/socio). But the global studies in FASS is still calling out to me......haiz IDK. Guess I'll know by 1 June eh. Don't wanna hog my place until then but I really need some time to think. Another thing is I didn't manage to convince my mum about SMU :( She says is still more conservative and if she was me, NUS will be her choice. Which makes me really conflicted because she kind of chose my sec sch and supported my jc choice (actually she wanted me to go Anderson but I brought her to the open house and showed her the haunted house LOL so glad that I went to NYJC really), both which I have zero regrets. So either she is right about NUS this time and I should stick to the "safe" route (but dumping ground :( ) or I follow my instincts and choose SMU, and cross my fingers that I don't regret it.
SMU Discovery Day
My first thoughts are the same as anyone reading this, "Discover what?? Means you accept me anot??"
I only applied for SMU on the last day of application at 11.30pm and I did not get any news until around 7 days later. I was kind of panicking because I knew they wouldn't reject me as my results were way above the cut off. But hey they are about holistic education right? I thought that this year's pool of applicants were also full of achievements and I was pushed aside by them. But the call came and I was informed that my application was successful and I did not need to attend any interviews, instead I was to attend this SMU Discovery Day that lasted 3 hours. I was about to send in an email to say I wanted to change my first choice to biz but they called me to say I was accepted into School of Economics (SOE) just before I sent in the email. Talk about timing haha maybe its fate. I think that this is their first year of implementation and I found some information on their website at http://admissions.smu.edu.sg/content/smus-commitment-holistic-admissions-faqs !!
To sum up what they mean, interviews are still compulsory except for a select group of shortlisted applicants.
Applicants are selected on the basis of their strong academic and co-curricular records as well as evidence of qualities such as critical thinking, communication skills and positive attitude.They feel that after 15 years of interviewing students they have found the secret formula (HAHA just kidding) to finding applicants who do well at interviews and after admission, do very well in SMU, just by looking at their applications. It's written in your face on the website.
Thus, for this group of students, they will be shortlisted on the basis of the quality of their submission, and be invited to visit SMU on “SMU Discovery Day”.All I can say is that this just shows how important your application is and to treat it very seriously, don't think that grades are everything because grades are just one factor, in addition to many other factors (which I also believe are more important) like your CCA achievements, life experiences and attitude.
And don't try to fluff your application because I'm very sure that they are more than capable of seeing through what's real and what's not.
So what did we do?
ANYWAYYYYYS, it lasted from 130-430 and it started off with a short talk by the Dean of SOE. It was followed by a 45min mock lecture. The lecture was about auctions and it was pretty interesting. I even got the chance to participate in the lecture as he picked me to be a participant in mini game which was like mock english auction. I think the lecturer was Italian and I did not understand what he was saying at first because of the accent, and hence I was LOST about the first game lol and I over-bidded. When he asked me why I bidded $9.10 when I would lose money (I think I could only resell at $9, I still don't know HAHA) , my mind was literally blank so I said I just want to win the bid LOL. I hope the people there will not remember me as the girl who bids too much because when he gave out acceptance letters, the Dean told me not to overbid next time HAHAHA well now I understand why embarrassing moments can become good memories later on eh :) I understood the second bid better and put my hand down at the right time haha and I'm quite grateful for him picking me because it gave me an experience of how a real lecture would be and my "I just want to win the bid" brought laughter to the room so it wasn't so sian I guess HAHA
We then had a short break and a sharing session by 2 alumni and 2 current students, and it ended with a tea reception.
SMU or NUS?
Before I went for this Discovery Day thing I was actually more inclined to go NUS. Being someone who is easily swayed, SMU did a good job in swaying me...ALOT. (maybe that's what the Discovery Day is supposed to do lol)
The pros of NUS are the inverse of the cons of SMU. How I wish I can take their respective pros and cons and make a new school haha. You know, be Hannah Montana, and get the best of both worlds. Hahaha but I ain't no Hannah Montana and I can only choose one :( I feel that no matter which school I choose, I'll definitely have some regrets.
NUS
+ More globally recognised if I ever want to work overseas (which I really do...)
+ Easier to get honours (3.2/5 vs SMU 3.4/4)
+ Variety of majors to choose from if you still do not know what to major in
+ Hall/College life
+ Read modules outside your faculty (idk if this is a plus or minus point actually)
+ Grade-free 1st sem
+ Feels more homely/friendly? idk
- The perceived dumping ground lol
- Lecture-tutorial style is boring. I skipped lectures in JC that were taught by horrible lecturers , and I'm sure I will in university too. Even if I don't, I might be zoning out 50% of the time oops.
- Increasing class participation. They may be trying to learn from SMU, but I've read lots of blogs where people complain that this makes others talk for the sake of talking and it wastes alot of time.
SMU
+ More opportunities for overseas exchanges/OCIP/internships
+Very interactive pedagogy that forces you to focus in class so you don't waste money skipping lectures unlike NUS (I experienced it first-hand HAHA)
+ 7 Modules = 2ND MAJOR in SMU vs MINOR in NUS (what even nus??)
+ Each lesson is 3hr long, and mostly only 5 lessons per week = 3/4 DAYS OF SCHOOL per week only (might be same in NUS if cram lecture/tutorials or skip lectures lol)
+ Become more confident and articulate because of endless presentations
+ Best career centre
+ Interesting modules like grooming and CAT that NUS does not have and are pretty essential in the working world
- Too focused on career (but it's a management uni afterall, and it's realistic I guess)
- Cut-throat competitiveness (but everywhere is competitive right?)
- Social sciences not as strong as FASS but if I'm doing only 2nd major in sociology/political science I think it's ok?
SMU may be more ex but the extra $10000 will be balanced out if I stay in NUS hall/college, and I feel really blessed when my parents tell me not to worry about the school fees or let it be a factor to consider. Distance from my house to both NUS and SMU is about the same so that's out too. I guess it really boils down to what I want to gain from university life, which I am not really sure yet sigh. If I want to do econs, then I will just choose SMU and do it with something I like (pol sci/psych/socio). But the global studies in FASS is still calling out to me......haiz IDK. Guess I'll know by 1 June eh. Don't wanna hog my place until then but I really need some time to think. Another thing is I didn't manage to convince my mum about SMU :( She says is still more conservative and if she was me, NUS will be her choice. Which makes me really conflicted because she kind of chose my sec sch and supported my jc choice (actually she wanted me to go Anderson but I brought her to the open house and showed her the haunted house LOL so glad that I went to NYJC really), both which I have zero regrets. So either she is right about NUS this time and I should stick to the "safe" route (but dumping ground :( ) or I follow my instincts and choose SMU, and cross my fingers that I don't regret it.
Apr 6, 2016
Life | Pics of March
Just posting some pictures to round up March :) let the photos do the talking!!!
As you can see, I have no life outside of work LOL but they are nice people so it's all good :)
Celebrated the two guys (boys) birthday in March...how long will this last? It's sad that we'll definitely drift apart after we stop working there and go to uni.....but I decided to take things positively and make every single day left there count. Guess they'll never see this, but thanks for making my first quarter of 2016 a fun and memorable one. I won't forget the times we sang karaoke in the shop (tbh everyday haha), the good food and jokes we shared, getting through busy nights and crazy orders together, enduring moumouren till he left (HALLELUJAH PART TIMERS 1 - moumouren 0) , and just making each other's life much happier at work, that it doesn't seem like work to me at all. Everytime I go to work I feel like I'm gonna meet fun friends and have a great time and stuff myself with food HAHAHA it wouldn't be the same without anyone of you. To those who made life difficult for us, thank you too, for making me see how unreasonable some people can be and learn from their mistakes, telling myself never to be like them heh. IT HAS BEEN A GOOD 3 MONTHS. Idk if I'll find another job, but I will definitely come back to work (play) whenever I can :)
Music | Feb & March
I think that I'm gonna do monthly/weekly (if there is) music reviews from now on. It isn't really music actually, just KPOP HAHAHA unless there are really nice english or chinese songs that I like.
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I've lost track of music releases and ain't crazy about kpop anymore, but there's still something that makes me go back to my fave music hehe
Although kpop is saturated with endless new boy/girlgroups now (mehhhhhh), I'm glad that there are so many good songs being released this month, lots from my fav singers too :) !!
I shall list them by rankings for this post, but I may do it by chronological order next time, who knows!! LET'S START.
1. Everytime | Chen ft. Punch | Descendants of the Sun OST Part 2
This song is LOVE. Yup I had to bold that haha I don't think its my bias towards EXO (not a crazy fan anymore, seeing how they are falling apart now in my eyes) but everytime (pun unintended LOL) CHEN releases an OST, it seems like it will cfm plus chop be a hit. His vocals are dreamy, not the usual manly vocals but his emotions are on point. I just feel this song shouldn't be Chen ft. Punch, but rather sung by Chen AND Punch, since her parts were really important and suits the song (maybe better than chen) well but oh well it's not up to me to decide that right haha
(Just saying, this song sounds creepily similar to his It's Okay, It's Love OST (Best Luck) :/)
2. Always | Yoon Mi Rae | Descendants of the Sun OST Part 1
I'm always looking out for Yoon Mi Rae's songs. It's hard to find someone who can rap and sing and pull both off so well nowadays. She definitely deserves all the respect she is getting.
3. Say It! What are you doing? | K.Will | Descendants of the Sun OST Part 6
Say what? Another DOTS OST?? HAHA yes. Maybe that's why this drama is receiving so much love. The actors and OST are top-notch. The official MV states the title as Talk Love but I don't understand what they are trying to mean by that, it's not even a (meaningful) literal translation LOL. It's another K.Will song, but not just another song. It's K,Will, do I need to say more? Hehe :)
4. Spring Love | Eric Nam & Wendy
Ahh the spring songs have arrived. They are SO CUTE they can't stop smiling and laughing and having fun in the MV hehe *squeals* !! I did not expect this collab at all, but I'm glad they did it. The song is quite mellow and only abit catchy, but their vocals make up for everything lacking. Maybe I'm just biased towards them haha but I really hope that Eric Nam finds happiness hahahha he is one of those singers whom I really like them for who they are, and not just their vocals or looks. He took International Studies in university too, maybe this is a sign for me to take Global Studies? HAHAHA ok moving on.
5. One of these Nights | Red Velvet
These girls can sing. And they have the looks and personality. This is probably one of the few groups that I feel that SM has managed properly lol but really, it was a weird choice to give them a ballad, after dance songs like Happiness and Ice Cream Cake. Maybe it was time to do something different, but these girls are best at upbeat and happy songs. And the distribution of lines is still ridiculous as usual (what can I say? it's SM)
6. Letting Go | DAY6
This group deserves so much more attention and recognition. This is their comeback after Junhyeok left the group following the dating scandal...lol idek what era is this anymore and knetizens are still making a big hoohaaaaaa over an idol dating? This group isn't even considered idols, they are more like musicians. But all that being said, he is gone from the group, so let's just let go and enjoy the music.
7. Remember That | BTOB
YAY they are back. As a full group this time. With SUNGJAEEEEE. Did I make it obvious enough who my bias is? HAHAHA I liked him since they debuted (i even bought his merchandise......foolish fangirl days) not after his popularity skyrocketed from the dramas he did and WGM. OKAY THAT'S NOT THE MAIN POINT HERE sorry haha they are another group that has failed to get the recognition they truly deserve. But this is a group that is like a treasure to me, I love every single song of theirs and am so thankful for their songs for getting me through the days. Quick question. Anyone knows when is CUBE gonna step up their game and give them a song that will bring them the fame, since they already have so much potential to do so???? I hope the answer to that is not never. These boys have waited long enough for their breakthrough yet sadly this song is still not good enough for the ticket to stardom. Better luck with the next song :(
8. Liar Liar | Oh My Girl
Another one of the few girl groups I enjoy listening to, and also very underrated (compared to overrated groups like GFRIEND imo la). This song is refreshing and cute, but the high pitched parts kinda annoy me while listening, but overall the song is catchy and nice enough to make me listen through the whole thing on replay. This may sound like something Red Velvet will promote, but I think it will be too cute for their style. Hyojung's parts in this song were the best and was the song's SAVING GRACE, but Closer is still a better song IMO. Definitely looking forward to their next comeback ^^ !!
Life | Random Thoughts
I remember being about ten years old and watching movie after movie featuring the same type of people—people in their twenties. I developed this romanticized idea that from ages 20–29 life was super awesome all the time. Now that I am at the tip of the ten-year iceberg known as my twenties, I have realized that simply is not true. Our twenties are a lot of things. Sometimes they are awesome. Sometimes they are ugly. Sometimes they are fun. Sometimes they are painful. Sometimes they are confusing. Sometimes they are enlightening. But one thing is for sure… they are anything BUT easy.And something I found about gemini that isn't totally relateable but those in bold and italics are.
You have a quick, bright and agile mind, but an extremely short attention span. You love the external, kaleidoscopic aspects of life, but you tend to avoid (and even fear) deep, close emotional involvements. As such, you seem to enjoy travel and sightseeing and generally being "on-the-go." You get quite listless when things around you become static and dull, but your excitement returns whenever you are stimulated by a new idea. Chatty, inquisitive and quite playful, you enjoy practical jokes and games in general. Your moods change quickly and often -- you are very restless and constantly in motion. You are known for your versatility and adaptability. Your vivaciousness enlivens any social gathering.
An idealist, you prefer the grand, the beautiful, the good and the noble. You get very disappointed when your high expectations in life are not met. Very curious by nature, you enjoy traveling and learning about other peoples and cultures. Try to avoid your tendency to ignore the small but important details of living. You are independent and free, and you want others to be that way, too. Optimistic, buoyant and cheerful, others like to have you around. You have an incessant desire to learn as much as possible about metaphysics, religion, philosophy and any other broad, deep subject. Your life tends to be punctuated by bursts of energy and frenetic activity.
Your mind is active, quick and agile. You are very restless and you get bored easily. Unless you receive constant mental stimulation, you become extremely nervous and begin to act in an unstable manner. You are probably a good student because of your natural inquisitiveness. You also love to travel. Your learning tends to be superficial, though, because you have a relatively short attention span. Try to develop the mental discipline to finish what you start. Also, you tend to talk on at times seemingly just to fill space -- make sure that your conversation has some substance to it or others will start avoiding you.
You like to be very close to other people. You need emotional support yourself and are willing to give it to others. When you feel unloved and insecure, you can be very jealous and possessive. You are not interested in casual or superficial relationships -- only deep emotional involvements interest you. Your faithful devotion is one of your greatest gifts, but be careful not to become too dependent on others. Learn to stand on your own two feet and demand your own rights once in a while.
You are very aware of the need to cooperate with others in order to further any effort. You are usually willing to compromise with others, although you can be quite competitive in a friendly way. Very fair- minded and impartial, you have the ability to sense injustice and the desire to take corrective actions to make proper compensations. You see both sides of issues and questions, but you tend to be undecided or wavering when forced to make choices that might make you vulnerable or unpopular.
An idealist, you prefer the grand, the beautiful, the good and the noble. You get very disappointed when your high expectations in life are not met. Very curious by nature, you enjoy traveling and learning about other peoples and cultures. Try to avoid your tendency to ignore the small but important details of living. You are independent and free, and you want others to be that way, too. Optimistic, buoyant and cheerful, others like to have you around. You have an incessant desire to learn as much as possible about metaphysics, religion, philosophy and any other broad, deep subject. Your life tends to be punctuated by bursts of energy and frenetic activity.
Your mind is active, quick and agile. You are very restless and you get bored easily. Unless you receive constant mental stimulation, you become extremely nervous and begin to act in an unstable manner. You are probably a good student because of your natural inquisitiveness. You also love to travel. Your learning tends to be superficial, though, because you have a relatively short attention span. Try to develop the mental discipline to finish what you start. Also, you tend to talk on at times seemingly just to fill space -- make sure that your conversation has some substance to it or others will start avoiding you.
You like to be very close to other people. You need emotional support yourself and are willing to give it to others. When you feel unloved and insecure, you can be very jealous and possessive. You are not interested in casual or superficial relationships -- only deep emotional involvements interest you. Your faithful devotion is one of your greatest gifts, but be careful not to become too dependent on others. Learn to stand on your own two feet and demand your own rights once in a while.
You are very aware of the need to cooperate with others in order to further any effort. You are usually willing to compromise with others, although you can be quite competitive in a friendly way. Very fair- minded and impartial, you have the ability to sense injustice and the desire to take corrective actions to make proper compensations. You see both sides of issues and questions, but you tend to be undecided or wavering when forced to make choices that might make you vulnerable or unpopular.
Who am I kidding haha almost the whole paragraph describes me, I'm always amazed by horoscope readings!
It is what it is. It was what it was.
Apr 5, 2016
Life | Wisdom Tooth Removal
It has truly been one hell of a week.
For the past seven days, I've been eating porridge and other soft foods like ice cream, cakes, eggs and did I mention porridge?
I was nagged by my dentist since 4 years ago to remove my wisdom tooth since they were growing in weird positions (but after consulting another dentist I discovered it wasn't really THAT weird. tsk.) and they could cause problems when I got older. At an age where most of my friends were only doing braces, removing wisdom teeth sounded stupid and unnecessary. And it costs ALOT (an average of $900 - $1200) to remove just one tooth. Taking out all 4 would mean a huge amount of nearly $5000. Plus, it is best to rest for at least one week (most people get 5 days MC). Being a student back then, taking one week off from school was out of the question with O levels and A levels to prepare for.
So here I am, 4 years later and suffering from not taking them out earlier. Recently the spacing between my teeth become non-existent and the front teeth started to overlap. I kept waking up from the pain/irritation at night and eventually my dentist told me again to take them out. It's advisable to take them out at ages 19-24 when the teeth are more stable yet roots have not grown completely, and bone soft enough to drill through.
So I did. On the day of the supposed surgery, I took an xray and guess what? He said that it was too risky as one of the roots was near the nerve and he didn't have the confidence to do it. He persuaded me and my mum (under much confusion and pressure) to take a CT scan of my teeth so that other dentists could operate on it with better precision (???) Good thing was that he was being honest about it if not I would have risked losing my tastebuds or facial control if anything went wrong LOL. Bad thing was that, the CT scan was a complete waste of money ($600 bucks and we still regret it) and I had to find another dentist ASAP. My mum's colleague recommended me to Thomson Medical and thank goodness I went there. The staff there were so nice and patient, and the dentist was probably the best medical/healthcare personnel I ever encountered. Sadly she couldn't operate on it too but she referred me to an oral surgeon and I got it done and over with a week later.
How did the process feel like?
(I'm writing this post as I couldn't find alot of useful posts on this online heh)
Anyways, it felt like hell.
Okay kidding it wasn't as bad as dislocating my knee, but it felt like hell because I was the one who chose to have the surgery. What I mean is, accidents always happen, but this surgery is one that I chose to go through, and for that reason I felt like I was putting myself through hell.
Some cream was applied to the right side of my mouth (I was taking out both molars on the right) and after 10 minutes, the surgeon injected LA into gums and I was awake through the whole process. I could feel the pressure, the pulling and pushing. It didn't hurt because my nerves were numbed, and they even covered my eyes and body. But from the sounds of the drilling and the force the surgeon was using, I knew that my jaw and mouth would be VERRRRRRY sore after the surgery. I guess I was just traumatised because I wasn't mentally prepared and the drilling sounds were so close to my ear, it felt like the surgeon was tearing down a building in my mouth hahaha
Removing the teeth took about 30 min and the whole thing was done in about one hour.
The anaesthetic wore off about 3hours later but the gum bled non-stop till dinner and I could hardly drink/swallow anything.
I could not open my mouth fully, smile or brush my right teeth teeth/gum for the next few days too.
Diet was like I mentioned, mostly porridge and anything that required minimal chewing.
And that made me really angsty, since I was stuck at home just waiting for days to pass. I felt like a pig, just eating and sleeping heh oink. I wasn't in pain, but I was too uncomfortable with the swollen cheek and jaw that I did not want to do anything.
On Day 6 and 7 (today), I managed to eat some bread (YAY FOOD!!) AND I HOPE TO EAT MORE REAL FOOD AFTER TAKING OUT STITCHES TMRW :) bless me cuz shermin told me that taking stitches out is pain too. But I've survived this far, and I will get through it tmrw and EAT GLORIOUS FOOD (I'm writing this with a growling stomach now....)
Don't wish it were easier, wish you were better. - Jim Rohn
Reviews to do:
- music (feb/mar)
- six flying dragons
- six flying dragons
Mar 24, 2016
Start of something new!
♥ Heyaaaa! As the title of this post suggests, this blog shall serve as a new platform for me to record down the start of a new chapter in my life. I'm currently waiting to get into university (with around 1 week left to apply..heh I'm pretty good at procrastinating) and life is getting pretty interesting and eventful. For the past few weeks, I have been lurking around the internet, surfing for more information on NUS modules and bloghopping made me miss the times I used to blog in the past (albeit childishly, but hey, everyone was childish once right? hehe) and thus, TA-DAAAA I just gave birth to this blog at 2am on 24/3/2016! You ain't my first child, but I'll love you abit more than the others ;)
Continue reading Start of something new!
I plan to use this blog to write posts on happenings in my life, reviews on books, dramas, songs and foods, and also academic related stuff once I enter uni, since I know how useful and important reviews about modules are now (its the real experience that counts, although they may vary, and gives more insight than CORS website) plus perhaps my thoughts on some current affairs/news.
So yup, just a short hello! post for today, and I hope I'll keep this blog alive (RIP to my other blogs oops :( ) and that any info that I post here in the future will be of use to others in need of it :)
I have work tomorrow, so I'll just do a short summary of what's going on in my life now!
Currently working at ewf and looking for another job since I can't imagine working there till july :/ I guess I shouldn't post work-related stuff here though. Really glad that I got to meet some gems there and I enjoyed most of my time working for the past 2.5 months. I'm grateful that I got a chance to try something new; making coffee, house drinks, desserts etc! I may not have my own motto or stuff like that, but I know that I'm a sucker for trying out new things, learning new stuff, interacting with more people and making friends in the process!
Okay moving on haha, I just finished watching ♥ Six Flying Dragons ♥ /sobs/ and I must say the entire 50 episodes were AMAZIIIIING !
HE CAN ACT. and I don't say that about actors often.
btw credits to http://bodashiri.tumblr.com/! I LOVE THIS TUMBLR
I hardly love watching historical dramas (ok I kid, I love all korean dramas, but definitely not as much as modern dramas as they are slower and more politics-centered I feel?) BUT THIS WAS TRULY A BEAUTY. This isn't a review post so I'll save my words on this and write a good review that it deserves when I have time soon!
Current dramas I'm watching:
1. Descendants of the Sun (Actually it's not that great like the hype suggests, maybe just for the eyecandies though heh)
plot? checked. cast? DEFINITELY CHECKED!!!
2. Please Come Back, Mister
3. Marriage Contract
3. Marriage Contract
I intend to end off my posts with a quote that I like/inspires me because I personally feel that quotes are so beautiful and meaningful.
Today's quote is one that has sticked with me through the years,
Over and out! ♥ (too much DotS hehe bye!!)I know I'm made of mistakes, disappointments, and failures, but trust me, there's a part of me worth keeping
