last results day EVER - reflecting on university part 1

In less than 2 hours, I'll be receiving a text from NUS with the results for my final semester here. I started out this space with an intention of updating about life and university reflections back when I was....17/18? Now that I'm turning 23 and leaving university, its a bittersweet feeling to cope with amidst the Covid-19 crisis. The transition to adulthood is never easy, and I had high hopes of accepting a job before leaving school. However, back in April I chose to reject an offer while pending another one, and ultimately decided to take a break from working after hustling non-stop since May last year. Perhaps its the 'wrong' choice given the severity of the health crisis that has caused travel to cease and businesses to suffer at unprecedented levels. Thankfully, I'm not the same person I was before I entered university. University was not just a place where I completed my degree, but learnt more about life and accumulated experiences that changed my mindset and outlook in life :) Just gonna list some lessons that I've learnt for memory sake heh.

1. Grow where you are planted.

The 'growth' mindset is probably the biggest change that happened to me, with experiences like CAPTSlam that drastically boosted my self-confidence and convinced myself that self-doubt should take a backseat in life. I am enough, and I just have to keep improving. It seems contradictory, and I'm still finding the right balance but its important to stay positive, be humble yet believe in yourself.

2. Everyone has a different path in life. 

More often than not, we find ourselves comparing to our peers and wondering why they are doing better than us or wishing to be where they are. What I've come to realise is that everyone has a different timeline and different path to take, and everyone is special as we are result of all the past choices we have made and will make. There is comfort in just slowing down and looking back on how far we have come to appreciate our own achievements and have faith that the future will be a rewarding one.

3. Everything happens for a reason, and it will be okay 

Not to say we can just slack, but as long as we are doing our best, I believe we can and should worry less about the future and avoid overthinking. Even if something doesn't work out the way you wanted it to be, it might actually be for the better and something more suitable will find its way to us.

4. All you need is a moment of courage to step out of your comfort zone 

It is uncomfortable to step out of our comfort zones, but it will definitely be worth it if one manages to summon up enough courage to YOLO and go ahead with what they are afraid of doing. Many experiences that I value today are a result of throwing caution to wind and it helped me discover new things about myself that I wouldn't otherwise know of, got to meet new people out of my social circles and created memories that are very special and dear to my heart.

5. Results really isn't everything, make the most out of university life

Easy to say but I know its still hard to stop expecting so much from ourselves after growing up in this education system that always focused on grades. I'm glad there's been changes that emphasize the holistic education experience and hopefully future generations will feel less pressure to 'excel'!! University life has been a rollercoaster experience that I would never trade for in life, and probably my best 4 years so far. I've laughed and smiled alot, but I've also cried and experienced stressful situations that have made me grow into who I am today. If I could go back in time to give myself advice, I would tell myself that I made the right choice to balance work and play, but I should have done it earlier and stop stressing about getting my results back on track.

That's the top few thoughts I have right now while reflecting on my university life so far!! ok results are out BRB PROCESSING MY FEELINGS :)

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AY 16/17 Sem 2 NUS module review

UPDATED ON 22 JULY 2017 WITH RESULTS
Before entering university, I used to spend HOURS reading blogs of undergrads who reviewed the modules they took for the semester and I found it really useful, although the experience of each module for every person may be different (due to their own interests in the module / different lecturers or change in syllabus for different semesters). I did not have the time to do so last semester, but I'm going to do one this sem!!! WOOHOO. I think it's good to reflect on how much I've learnt from each mod after going through 13 weeks of learning that particular content, since university isn't really just grades to me. I always find myself questioning how I will be using this for my future career, just so that I don't fall into the trap of studying for the sake of it, because I believe that university is the place where I get to learn what I truly have interest in and couldn't do so during my past educational journey due to practical reasons. Anyways coming back to the topic of this post, the modules I took this sem were: GL2101 (core), GE2202 (core/2nd Major/UE), GE2229 (core/2nd Major/UE), GER1000 (ULR), LAK2201 (core) and UTC1411 (UTCP, JS). I'll introduce the module in a brief paragraph (what the mod is about and my experience) followed by what I liked and disliked about this module, assessment criteria and if I'll recommend it to others or not. Oh and also my expected grade and MAAAAYBE update with my final grade when I get back the results! Ok leggo.

1. GL2101: Origins of the Modern World 

Guess I'm starting off with my core module which was really felt like a burden this whole sem. If you've taken history before in JC / read up about European history before, it'll probably just be a recap for you. I only studied 2 years of history in secondary sch as en elective and I really disliked history in the past (until this mod happened) as it seemed to be just memorisation of facts and outcomes and regurgitating out during exams to me. The learning curve was really steep for me since I had literally 0 knowledge on European history or Asian history before I took this mod (unless you count JS1101E but japan was hardly mentioned during this module besides their participation in WW2). I got a C for my midterms (I still think I deserved at least a B- zz) and A- for the term paper so today's finals was really gonna determine how badly (or well) I do for this mod. I'm glad to say that after 14 hours of chionging my cheat sheet the day before the finals, I managed to do my paper well imo (but may not translate into good marks lmao). 4700 words on 1 side of an A4 paper is no freaking joke!!! Do start early if Prof Graf allows for the cheat sheet again next time. The cheat sheet really helped though, I was copying all the information that was relevant to the questions I attempted, which was about 1/4 of the cheat sheet (1100~ words) so the time spent doing the cheat sheet was really worth it. Don't be lazy and not do the cheat sheet (I saw some people with quite bare cheat sheets) unless your brain has 1TB of space and you can memorise 13 weeks worth of readings and pick out the right information under the stress and time constraint during finals.

This module covered 15th to 21st century focusing on the major powers and their statehood / ideologies and key events that happened throughout the time period that shaped the world to what it is today; hence the title Origins of the Modern World. I usually hate history but this mod covered really interesting topics if you make the connections between the different time periods and see the big picture. 4 major segments included Early Modern Globalisation (Colonialism by European and their colonial networks of production and exchange), Revolutions (American/French/Haitian and Industrial), European Imperialism (Ideologies, Practices and Asian/Colonial Responses) and 20th-21st century history (WW1,WW2 + Cold War & Third World).

What I liked about this mod: t's really ALOT of information to understand and cram in 4.5 months and it was really hard at the beginning as I couldn't make links between what I was learning and the modern world. But after going through the whole syllabus, I can say that all (only 2 lol) the global studies modules I've taken so far are extremely challenging BUT SATISFYING because I really learnt a lot from them and I think that's what I want out of my university education :) Even if the final grade isn't good / pulls down my CAP this sem, I think I'll be happy with what I've taken away from this module because I am really able to understand the world better now. 

What I disliked about this mod: The prof often mumbles to herself when she gets carried away in her train of thoughts and speaks quite softly (100% volume was barely sufficient to listen to her electure) so once you lose track and let your mind wander off during lectures, you'll have a hard time getting back into it and that's what happened to me for 2-3 lectures. There is no webcast / recording for this module so it was a MUST to attend lectures on Fridays 4pm-6pm. What I've learnt from this sem: 1. Do NOT take mods that have finals on the same day, even if you have to replan all your mods and timetable to take a different mod, DON'T EVER TAKE 2 FINALS ON THE SAME DAY LOL. So freaking shag now but I'm destressing through this haha just really glad that today is almost over and I can happily revise my GE2229 after I get some sleep. 2. DO NOT PLAN FRIDAY 4-6 LECTURES EVER AGAIN. Everyone will be TGIF-ing while you drag yourself to take D1 to arts for lecture. Not cool pong, don't ever do it again. I could have taken another core module to avoid these 2 problems but oh well. At least I'm done with 1 core module!!!

ASSESSMENT: 

20% tutorial participation

25% midterm paper (due ~wk 6): C

25% term paper (due ~wk 12): A- example of a prompt: How do Marx and Engels discuss the connections between imperialism and industrial capitalism? Based on their text, do you think it is fair to say that the origins of capitalism are global in nature?

30% finals

Expected grade: B-/B/B+ i really dk because her marking is really weird.
Final grade: B-
I OFFICIALLY HATE THIS MODULE. Jk I hate how the bell curve is skewed towards those who already have a background in history and how the prof conducts her lectures. The readings were q intense too and looking back, I can only remember the stuff I wrote on my cheatsheet. Getting B- overall shows that having a cheatsheet doesn't make the finals any easier. Because everyone has their own cheatsheet too so how you answer the question will distinguish you from other students.

SHOULD YOU TAKE IT? No. Hell no. Unless you are a global studies major or minor. This is a non-s/u-able mod that gave me so much stress over the past week if you still haven't felt it from what you've read BUT IF YOU'VE TAKEN H2 history before and you want to wreck the bellcurve for GL Majors, why not :) trust me you'll get karma. HAHAHAH kidding but really, unless you have legit interest in this mod / confident of doing well, don't take it. Even if you have interest in history, just take some history mod not this GL core!!! 

2. GE2202: Economy and Space [A disappointment and regret taking this mod now that I look back on it.]

This mod can be counted under the global economics and development theme for GL. Throughout this whole sem I thought I found my calling. The textbook for this module was "Economic Geography" and that's precisely what I like and wanted to do in uni. Until I sat for finals today. Maybe it's just because I wasn't well prepared for finals but I felt SO drained during this paper and questioned myself for taking this module LOL. Anyways, topics included Capitalism, Finance, State, Tech Change, TNC, Spaces of Consumption, Commodity chains, Clusters, Gendered and Ethnic communities, Labour Power.

What I liked about this mod: Quite a chill module, but the readings no chill!!! But the lecturer is pretty famous in this field + entertaining + damn friendly / fatherly + practical + GIVES EXAM TOPICS that I didn't prepare lmao = BEST LECTURER IN MY LIFE SO FAR HONESTLY. He is able to impart his knowledge to us in a coherent and interesting manner. It sounds so simple to accomplish but somehow it is v rare to find lecturers like him who can do both. Tutorials were okaaaaaay not compulsory but do go for the first tutorial to choose your group mates for the presentation. He seems pretty chill in marking too, my research paper on UNIQLO seemed more like a marketing paper (even I felt that same way but I was more concerned with my GL2101 term paper to focus so much on this) but I guess my research for it (went to the flagship store to take photos and interview a manager) convinced him to change my B+ to A-. 

What I didn't like about this mod: READINGS NO CHILL LA. 60 pages a week is insane. Even global studies ain't 60 pages. Ok that's my only complaint. HAHA. OH and 30% per essay for finals is a really high weightage, would have preferred more CA.

ASSESSMENT:

10% group presentation on a commodity chain/TNC's GPN: 6-7/10

30% research essay: A-

60% finals (2 essays, so each is 30%)

Expected grade: B/B+ (really screwed up 1 of the essays for finals today sigh I don't even want to find out what the answer should be, but thank god this is an S/U-able mod just in case I do really badly)
Final grade: B+ 
I actually wanted to get B for this and S/U it LOL but feels weird to be stuck with this average grade because I don't feel like I've learnt much from this module, maybe because it felt like a recap of A level globalisation. As much as I found the prof v entertaining, I was looking forward to new knowledge about the economy and space that I've not learnt before but it seems like I expected too much from this module. Really regret taking this module in this sem as I should have taken IEM2 and S/Ued it instead. 

SHOULD YOU TAKE IT? If you really have interest in economic geography i.e. the topics I mentioned above + ready to read 60 pages per week :D but I'll say take it, the lecturer is really good :) no. 

3. GE2229: Water and Environment 

This mod can be counted under the global health and environment theme for GL. The only reason I took this mod was in case I wanted to do a 2nd major in geog because that means I need to overload for arnd 4/5 sems and better to start now than later. But overloading meant I needed a chiller mod, and this had damn slack assessment criteria. No class part + papers + presentations / projects is THE LIFE LA. Perhaps the most chill mod I'll ever take in NUS. Me likey :)

What I liked: CHILL. I expected an intense H2 geog recap of hydrology + more depth & breadth but it was only around 30% hydro + 20% ATMO for before midterms (no kidding for midterms both the open ended questions were on atmo; hurricanes and El Nino): Water elements, Rainfall, Groundwater, Hydrology of Water Basins, Fluvial elements of geomorphology and Hydro Hazards (more like ATMO HAZARDS) + new COOL stuff after midterms like Cryosphere, The Global Ocean, Aquatic continuum, Impact of humans on aquatic continuum, Potable water and waste water treatment and Water conservation and management. I have a Y3 senior in Env Studies who didn't go for a single lecture and just chionged the webcasts a few days before midterms and she got an A. Yup. So after midterms I didn't really attend lectures (partly because of Korean project / papers due) and watched webcasts last week. All you need is 20~ hours to watch all the webcasts and internalise the information and you are ready for finals :D Oh and tutorials were DAMN chill too. You can even go without preparing for the tutorial and smoke your way through and be there just in case he teaches impt stuff. We even played quizzes in groups during the last tutorial and my group got 1 mark added to our overall grade because we got first. I think there are enough examples to prove to you how chill this mod is ayeeee. 

What I disliked: It's the lecturer's first time teaching in NUS, so that's why it's probably so chill. BUT he really can't give lectures la idk how he got employed by nus but he was literally just reading off the slides and the only interesting parts of lectures were the Youtube videos he showed. He is a good tutor though, just can't teach in a big setting I guess. Hope it gets better next sem after the feedback he receives!!

ASSESSMENT:

40% midterms: A-

60% finals 

Expected grade: A- as of now before I start my final revision LOL shall update after the paper tmrw.
Final grade: B+ 
The bell curve was a wrecker. Didn't expect to do this badly considering how easy the content was + A- for mid terms but I guess everyone did well too. 

SHOULD YOU TAKE IT? yes. duh. is it not chill enough? HAHA you will have to endure the boring lecturers but it's worth it.
Take it only if you need to clear the tropical change group and want a mod with light workload, but be prepared to get B+ unless you work really hard for A- and above.

4. GER1000: Quantitative Reasoning
Compulsory module. Topics include Design of Studies, Association, Sampling, Probability and Networks.

What I liked about this mod: uhhhhhh it was hard to like this mod at first but I found networks really interesting!!! Stuff like closeness centrality measure, degree centrality measure,  between centrality measure and Bacon number. Found it really relevant to real life after going through the mod so even though it seems like a burden (cuz no one CHOSE to do this, it's pre-allocated to us, you don't do you don't graduate hehe), eventually I was able to apply what I learnt after the mod ended so I guess it was good!! PLUS MY TUTOR WAS ONE OF THE BEST ONES OMO damn lucky. He was quirky yet funny and kept encouraging us. Best tutor I've met so far, rest of the tutors that aren't the prof are just MEH useless.
What I disliked about this mod: Electures are a BORE. I just read the script + summaries by my tutor.

ASSESSMENT:
5% IVLE quizzes: 4.2/5? Missed one quiz :x
10% Class part: Should be 8/9? DEPENDS ON YOUR TUTOR. There are 5 tutorials and 5 members in each group so my tutor made sure that everyone in the group answered questions for the tutorial once.
20% Midterm test: 12/16 (Average LOL bell curve was v steep for this sem as compared to last sem)
25% Group Project: 17%~ish? Had some good teammates so it wasn't a bad experience. Met up about once or twice a week fm wk 9-11 to finish it up.
40% Finals: I felt that it was ok but IDK LOL all depends on the bell curve :/

Expected Grade: B+
Final grade: B+

SHOULD YOU TAKE IT? you don't have a choice XD

5. LAK2201: Korean Level 2
Hmmmmm because I declared that I had background knowledge when I NEVER HAD FORMAL KOREAN LESSONS BEFORE ugh stupid pong just because I declared I watched kdramas for arnd 7 years I was not allowed to take level 1 and my appeal failed so I sucked it up and studied for around 1 week before the placement test, and got into level 2. The difficulty level was okaaaaaay since it's the beginner course but rlly glad that I got Han Ji Won as my lecturer!! Lectures/tutorials are q fun :) Always looked forward to it although it was 2 times a week @10am but it never felt like a legit lesson, I really enjoyed myself!  We learnt writing, speaking, listening and reading. Before I started level 2, I always thought that speaking was easiest to learn since I picked it up by watching shows BUT NOOOOOO oral is damn hard wth. Much more fluent in reading + listening > writing & speaking now sigh. Looking forward to level 3 but kind of afraid to go all the way to level 5 :( really hope this doesn't kill my passion for korean.
What I liked: Fun fun fun lessons. Fun and cute teacher. We sang "Heads, Shoulders, Knees and Toes" in Korean for the last lesson to round up what we learnt SECUTES. And fun and open classmates too!
What I disliked: Little guidance, the teacher just covered what was in the lecture notes. CA is only 40% but SO MANY ASSIGNMENTS D: I was the most on the ball for this mod because of all the CA LOL. 2 written assignments, 2 oral (individual + pair) + 2 exams = every alternate week there is something due for this mod.
ASSESSMENT:
25% Performance (participation, oral performance)
60% Mid -term test (76/100), Final- term test
15% Assignments: 10.5/15

Expected grade: Really unsure for this mod but still chill this sem since I can s/u if I don't get B+ hmm. B/B+
Final grade: B+
Moving onto Level 3 next sem and the class size is getting real small, hoping that the bell curve doesn't screw me up though.
And really hoping that I get Han Ji Won as my lecturer/tutor again I love her teaching style :)

SHOULD YOU TAKE IT? If you have real interest. 'Nuff said.

6. UTC1411: Systems, Systems, Everywhere
I FOUND ZERO reviews on Junior Seminars for UTCP and honestly it frustrated me but I guess most people just ask seniors for reviews personally.
What I liked: Chill, 3 hour per week session to fulfil my UTCP requirement lol the most chill mod out of all utcp mods since it's auto s/u. SUPER EYE-OPENING FIELDTRIPS to see how different systems worked:
1. 1925 Micro-brewery (still miss all that craft beer we got to drink hehe)
2. Jurong Port Fishery: Hai Sia
3. Direct Funeral Services

What I disliked: Prof was too chill. and damn inflexible. I handed up both reflections a few days late because they were due @ same time as my global studies papers + I was sick during both periods LOL but he halved all my scores for the 32% omg. So this sem I experienced 2 weeks of UTC1411 reflection + GL2101 25% paper deadlines while being sick. Even though its an auto s/u mod I still wanted to get a good grade but oh well whatever as long as I passed and learnt something from this module I guess.
ASSESSMENT:
30% quizzes
38% presentation
32% Reflections

SHOULD YOU TAKE IT? no. there are more meaningful js out there. but if you are overloading and need a chill mod then take it :)

Alright I guess that's it for this sem! Really enjoyed all the modules this sem, it has been a really fulfilling semester and perhaps the most I've grown as a person in such a short period of time. Looking forward to summer!!!
1. CAPTSLAM Exco
2. CAPT FOC councillor
3. Arts camp councillor
4. CE Day Project Leader
5. MOVING HOUSE IN JUNE
yaaaaaaaaas summer here I come in 20 hours :)))

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mini round-up of 1st Year in NUS/CAPT

honestly, CAPT feels like everything to me in university that studies plays such a small role so this post is going to be mainly about CAPT :)
Thank you for the experiences I never knew I'll go through, for the countless opportunities where I was able to step out of my own comfort zone and get to know myself so much better, pushing to me be the best version of myself and striving to continuously grow and learn everyday, taking small steps at a time but giving me a goal in sight to work towards.
It has truly been an amazing year in CAPT, with all kinds of overwhelming emotions that I'm still learning to cope with, but I really cannot imagine living somewhere else or even not living on campus at all. University life would have been so, so much different if I did not make that last minute impulse decision to follow my gut feeling and apply for UTCP/CAPT, and talking to the seniors that I did to correctly choose the room/floor I'm staying in now. I guess that's just life, and that's just fate. It hasn't been an easy journey, rather it has been filled with ups and downs but I'm still v grateful for everything that has happened, be it the good or the bad. Even as I'm typing now, I hear people screaming from the lounge LOL perks of living on the mixed floor but there's nowhere else I rather be.
I promised myself that this will be a short post just to write out all the thoughts and feelings that I have now, as 2 farewell parties/dinner just ended this week. Plus my phone TOTALLY CRASHED and hanged at the apple logo / "white screen of death" during formal dinner till the next day so I was pretty deprived of social media / any forms of communication for 24 hours, which made me reflect quite a bit too. Really regret not saving / backing up my photos from May 2016 or even submitting the warranty form online. Not really worried about the photos in CAPT that I lost since I know I can easily get it back / it was good to get rid of all the clutter that I couldn't bear to delete myself. Just kind of sad that I will never get back photos with you since we aren't on talking terms anymore, if there is that small chance that you are reading this, I'll really appreciate it that you send them to me :') But since the possibility of that is close to none, I guess some photos will remain etched in my heart and I can remember them without the soft copies. I hope that you are still smiling as brightly, or living an even happier life than you had when you were with me, because you deserve it. I hope that you can find someone who will be there for you when you need and loves all of you for who you are. On some nights I still find myself missing your presence but I guess you've moved on and having me back in your life won't do you any good since all I did was to bring you down. So please be happy and work towards your dreams :) You may have been in my life for a short period of time but I don't regret any of it, and I'll always remember you. I find myself hoping to find traces of you when I cross the road for meals or when I go to places we went together before, but I just smile to myself knowing that I'm blessed that we happened before and hope that now you are in some place better, with someone who deserves you more than me. Now I'm back to being the "strong and independent" girl that I was before I met you, although I don't know if it is just a facade, but so many people tell me that they see me that way. Part of me wants it to be true, but another part of me just wants someone whom I can rely on emotionally and physically. Quoting what one of my closest friends in CAPT once said, "I'm coping better now, but it still gets lonely at times when you recall what you once had but things can never go back to the way it was before." But I guess that's just life, and I hate telling myself to just suck it up and hang in there even though there isn't much of a choice aye. Ok moving onto the proper round-up.
1. 6 mods: The past few weeks ever since recess week have been crazy and a constant struggle to balance studies, socialising, house-head campaigning, SAC events, CAPT events, new room and new house stuff on top of emotions that I want to stop feeling and the flu bug that just won't go away :'(
It still feels very ambiguous about how my results for this semester would turn out. I thought that all hope was lost after getting 76/100 for Korean midterms (the 75/23 percentile and avg/median marks were only out in around week 11..? AFTER I SCREWED UP MY ORAL TEST) and my first ever (depressing) C for GL2101 midterms. Taking 2 geog mods this sem, one of which I got an A- for my 40% midterms, on top of the C for global studies just swayed me towards officially changing my major to geography next sem. So for the past few weeks I was already kind of decided on geog as my first major (I just found out I cannot do double degree in FASS as geog and global studies are both in FASS SIGH it doesn't make sense when one is a social science degree while the other is an arts degree though FASS PLS RECONSIDER THIS IN THE NEAR FUTURE BEFORE I GRAD!!! HEHE) and global studies as my second major/minor (since taking global studies as a second major isn't really allowed as the language commitment is damn high for a second major). BUT I JUST GOT BACK MY TERM ESSAY FOR GLOBAL STUDIES AND IT'S A FREAKING A-??? *does happy dance* My first ever A- for a global studies module (I got B and B+ for last sem's GL1101E)...and now I'm really conflicted LOL, but it's not time to decide yet so I shan't think about it yet. Still gonna take GE1101E and GE2101 next sem because I'll still do a second major in geog if I stick to global studies heh. (I'll be 4 or 5/12 mods done with it by next sem yaaaaaaay!!)
Got back JS results which was pretty bad because of my two late submissions for reflections that are 32 marks in total LOL shit but as long as its a pass its fine la hahaha thanks for being such a chill module this semester with fun-filled fieldtrips!!!!
Really hope that I do well this semester as I'll probably apply for scholarships next sem :> JIAYOU PONG ANOTHER 3 WEEKS HANG IN THEREEEE!

2. SAC: Our journey together is gonna be over real soon, but thank you guys for everything. I've learnt so much and had so much fun with y'all. Still remember when I first got in and Xuan told me "Goodbye, you sold your soul and time to SAC". All our planning, pre-preparation and execution of the past 5 events and welfare packs has really taken up alot of my time, but I'm glad to say that I never found it a chore and was really excited to go through it with yall :') To the director whom I was frustrated with at the start, thank you for accepting me into the wonderful comm, allowing me to learn and grow so much in a short period of time. I may not agree with your leadership style (esp how you tank everything by yourself sometimes) but thanks for opening my eyes to so many views/ ways of doing stuff. Invaluable takeaways and memories from SAC that I'll always treasure.

3. House-Head elections: As expected, I didn't get the job. But not so expected was how close I was to almost getting it. Thank you ROC for having so much faith in me, I'm really touched by everyone who voted for me despite me not being in house comm and I'm sure yall know about the profanities (such a nice word for not so nice words HAHAHAH) I say at times, thank you for being so accepting of me and thanks to those who told me not to give up on my dreams and pushed me along the way. To Lenard and Tammy, I always thought that both of you will get it when we had those late-night convos about what we wanted to change in ROC / what we felt the house comm should do. Thank you for sharing your honest opinions and having faith in me as the person you wanted to work with. To Tammy, thank you for trusting us and showing us your vulnerable side and know that we are always here to support you through it all next year, you are never alone in this!! To Lenard, when I first dumped the idea of running for it on you, I never expected that you'll choose me as who you wanted to work with but thank you so much for believing that I had the potential to do it with you. And lastly to Nova, till now it's still mixed feelings because I know the chances of me getting it would be v high if I didn't trigger you to run for it, but I'm really happy that you got it too as I know that the house will be in safe hands, and you are strong enough to handle criticisms and keeping Tammy on the right track. I'll always be here for you and you are not alone too bro <3 May ROC be great again under the wings of you two!!

4. Honestly idk what subheading to give to this section and I need to leave for home soon, but I guess I'll just call it the closure. It has been a tiring sem for me, with emotions that I don't really want to deal with but I know I must. Kind of got myself into shit if not for that night. If I didn't take my things from the lounge to go study with you. If I didn't tell you the truth about what I felt last semester for someone, which prompted you to trust your secrets with me, that I'm sorry to say I'm not going to be the only one bringing it to my grave as I had to share this burden with others because of my feelings that they wouldn't be able to understand if I didn't tell your part of the story. But I know it has to end now, before I fall any deeper or get even more confused about what this is. Just know that I'll always be here for you, to listen to your woes and empathising with you because I know how it feels. Just sad that this kind of feels like what happened 3/4 years ago, with me having to deal with my feelings myself and not being able to tell the other party in fear of ruining the friendship. But yes, I realised till today it's still friendship > relationship for me so I'm going to be thankful for what we already have and know where to draw the boundaries for myself to feel for you..hopefully. Like what you said, it's tiring to feel so much for someone but not being able to tell the person or just going for it based on your feelings. I guess it's even more tiring for me to hear all these from the person I kind of like, but knowing that we cannot happen because of what you are feeling for someone else. Part of me wishes that you never mentioned that we could happen if not for the circumstances you are in now, which gave me a glimmer of hope to wait for you. But I guess one semester of waiting is enough for me, since it looks like you are still going to be in this situation for some time to come and we both know it's unfair to just date without considering what you are going through. Another almost-relationship, but its time for me to move on. I just hope that these 3 months won't be painful without you, and that you will not be in too much pain too. We are still so young, with so much future ahead of us, let's not let this affect our personality / give up hope on love. There is so much love in this world, to give and to receive, and love is what keeps the world going. I will still love you, but as a friend like I've always felt and not hope for more anymore.

OKAY TIME TO GO HOME AND RECUPERATE. FLU BUG PLEASE LEAVE ME BEFORE INTENSE READING WEEK!!!!!! Really worn out from the constant studying/ rushing of assignments that seemed never-ending over the past 3 weeks which included 2 30% essays, 3 presentations and a 40% finals. Glad that week 13 was much chiller but emotionally heavier because of the 2 farewells. bye week 13, you've been a great one :')
Here's just some photos in case my phone decides to wipe out all my photos again :<

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recess week

it's finally that time of the semester,
when I am able to take a mini breather from everything that is happening.
This semester is going to be an extremely tiring and overwhelming one, but I believe that it'll be one of the most fulfilling semesters too.
i have to balance 6 mods, SAC, open day, ce day, ce fest, games reading group and possibly house head nominations in the next few weeks to come.
1. 6 mods: to complete my plan of doing double degree on time (without extending by 1/2 sems), I will need to overload for at least 5 sems (3 if I manage to do GE3230A? the field studies 8MC mod during Y2S2 i guess). So here's my first sem overloading and it's going pretty okay so far, partly because JS is pretty chill, i'm having fun with korean 2, and GER1000 isn't that much of a burden. the remaining 3 heavy mods are hellish though. I didn't expect such tough maths in GE2229 but having taken H2 geog before is definitely giving me an edge over others as its easier for me to grasp the concepts of hurricanes etc since it's just a revision + more in depth for me/ plus daniel is taking it and he excels in maths so we kinda complement each other and WE WILL DO WELL (hopefully hahaha). As for GL2101 and GE2202, I'm guilty of not touching the readings for the entire sem. I read 3/6 readings for GL2101 before lectures but it felt so overwhelming while I was reading as I have zero knowledge about early modern period history in the Atlantic region and felt so so lost. But I managed to cram 200 pages of readings in 3 days to do my midterm paper and I regret not persevering earlier on haha. It's really so interesting to the point I felt like I should have taken pure history / H1 / H2 history but nah geog is interesting too. Looking forward to the remaining few weeks left and now I know I will conquer my readings on time hehe hopefully 20th + 21st century stuff are interesting too. Finally, GE2202 hahahahahha the mod I do not have any friends taking with me, nor have I went for lectures/ read 6 weeks of readings / watched 6 weeks of webcasts LOL. I'm really quite screwed for this mod, but I have started reading it and tutorials are pretty interesting. Thank goodness the prof is really fun and cracks legit jokes unlike some lame profs hahahaha he gives off the fatherly vibes too and I am really glad I went for tutorial even though attendance wasn't compulsory / no class part. Really looking forward to completing this mod's readings too hehe. I guess I'm blessed that I love everything I'm studying now, even though some diversity would be much appreciated (eg. some chemistry / maths to do).
2. SAC: Honestly, I didn't go for a couple of meetings during the first half of the sem as it has been an emotional rollercoaster these few weeks, but things are getting better and I've started attending meetings again. Really love this bunch of people and it's insane how our journey together is coming to an end already, with only INS left during week 9 :( I would really continue on if its the same comm but sadly I don't think that will be the case. But I know I've found my favourite bunch of people outside ROC and I'm really thankful that I didn't get into house comm actually.
3. Open Day, CE Day + CE fest: Week 7 - 9 will be insane with INS, open day training + open day, ce fest training + ce fest and ce day preparation / recce trip / proposal.  WHAT HAVE YOU GOTTEN YOURSELF INTO PONG???? WHY AM I DOING SO MANY THINGS? I really hope that I'll be able to cope and maybe, just maybe, I'm signing up for so many stuff to force myself to be disciplined haha. I actually love being busy and know that my time in CAPT is being well spent, maximising the opportunities that I have to grow and develop as a person.
4. Games reading group: We went for a fieldtrip today and I was asked about why I decided to join reading group, since most people who joined are seniors who are taking just to clear their residential stay requirements. Honestly, I just felt like since I'm paying so much to live in CAPT, and I came for the UTown College Program which places more emphasis on education rather than participation in hall/RC activities, I should be making full use of my time, energy and money to make sure my stay in CAPT is as fulfilling as possible. It was something I have interest in, and really I won't make the effort to find out more about this topic that I have interest in if not for this reading group, so why not? Was torn between this and the human trafficking reading group that a global studies prof is in charge of, but I chose this instead as I thought it'll be more fun and I needed something fun to balance out my workload haha.
5. House head nomination: Now comes the biggest burdern/worry on my shoulders now..Whether to run for it or not. The more I think about it the more I want it, and I know the more disappointed I will feel if I do not get the role. It makes sense to run because I love ROC more than CAPT and I really want this place to be a home for the freshies and let them experience what I felt over the past 1.5 sems, a home away from home, to know that you have a shelter to come back to, people who genuinely care about your well-being and will make the effort to make you happy and feel included. I believe that I have also taken part in enough events to manage people and would like to learn how to do so as well. It's also one of the last chances to take on such a high leadership role. But then there's also the fear of failure, what if I don't get the role? After telling myself that I want the role so much, I don't know if I will be able to cope with rejection by the house and failure. I hope that people do not vote for who they like/are close to, but rather who they believe can be capable house heads together, to bring roc to greater heights, and to make roc a home for everyone. I do not believe that the house comm/heads will experience failures, they are just lessons to be learnt so that the next event can be better planned and enjoyed by more people, or provide more entertainment for people since events are a platform for us to interact with others that we do not always see. I would really love to see more people step out of their comfort zones, to make the effort to talk to people whom they are not close with, but still feel comfortable talking to them since we are all part of the same house, sharing the same culture and feeling the same love. And I would want to be in the position to introduce new ideas to improve on our culture and inclusiveness and to actively care for our well-being. After all, roc has given me so much over the past 1.5 sems and it would be an honour to give back and be able to serve the people in this house. Not saying that I will not do it if I am not a house head, but if I'm willing to do that much for roc, why not go for it right? There's still 1.5 weeks more to think about it so I guess I'll take my time and not make rash decisions, although its leaning towards running for it now.
another thing I have to cope with alongside with all these is conflicting and overwhelming emotions. It has really been a crazy 6 weeks since the sem started, having some regrets here and there but I'm glad for everything that has happened and brought me to where I am today.
I sacrificed work for the first few weeks but I got closer to so many people. Tammy, Benn, Zexun, Shubz, Kang Ming, Corn, Cheryl, Lenard and Huiee. LOL just realised they are all on level 5 besides benn and km. But I'm really so thankful for all of y'all for giving me the support that I needed and never knew I could receive. I thought that I had found my support system in roc already, but change is the only constant ya? Thank you all for making my life so much better. I'm really glad that we put each other before ourselves and actively care for one another. Waking the whole level up for 9am breakfast has become our thing and gathering people for lunch / dinner too. Thank you for making everyone feel included and loved. Thank you daniel too, for always being there for me when I'm at my best and (bringing me to) my worst, always pushing me to do better yet knowing what my limits are and telling to me care for myself more and let others treat me better (but bruh you can't follow your own advice for nuts). Thank you for pushing me to try something new, achieving something I never thought I could achieve. Although I didn't get into the road relay ICG team (that won 1st LOL  damn sian) because of 3 seconds + didn't go retrial even though the captain offered to do a retrial for me (because i felt it'll be unfair to the other girl LMAO PONG YOU RLLY TOO DUMB 3 WEEKS AGO), running 8:44 for 1.8km is something I never thought I could do, given the numerous health problems that I have lol. Thank you for running with me and pushing me whenever I wanted to give up, even when you have a hole in your heart and shouldn't be over-exerting yourself. Thank you for encouraging me to continue trying despite not getting into the team this year and believing that I can make it next year. You've really raised the bar of being a house head and best friend way too high that I don't think anyone can do better than you lol. Thank you benn, zx and shubhankarrrr too, for always keeping tabs on me everyday and making sure I'm doing alright. Y'all da best <3
Ok time to get my shit together yay CAP 4.25 THIS SEM LEGGO hopefully everything will work out, but even if it doesn't I know I'll just grow more and glad accept it hehe because I'll only grow stronger and better :)
Note to self: Stop trying to save people, save yourself first. You cannot save others, only they can save themselves. Do not confuse pity/sympathy for love. They have to love themselves first, before you love them.

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Week 2&3 of Dec Hols

Heya!! Today's Christmas Eve and I'm only left with 2 weeks of holidays. Feels kinda weird, for the first time I'm actually excited and looking forward to the start of the next sem, yet I wish that the holidays could be abit longer too as I'm also afraid of what's to come. I can't deny the fact that I'm so excited to take 2 geog mods next sem though HAHA :D Really hoping to pull my CAP up abit more to around 4.2 (I need 2 A- next sem??) or just maintain what I have now till Y2S2 to apply for double degree :)) After telling my mum about it, she asked if I had the determination to work that hard and I'm surprised that I actually said YES hahahah even if it doesn't work out I guess I'll reach where I'm supposed to be eventually and I hope I'll take whatever that route is without any regrets ya!! Back to the main purpose of this post haha, I think that this is the first holiday where I really enjoyed myself as I did not have to do any homework HAHA. We all know that holidays from primary school to JC were never really "holidays" due to the holiday presents given by our teachers lmao. But this was the first time (ok second if you count the break between A levels and Uni but I always feel like I wasted that holiday working :/) I did not really  have to worry about anything hehe. Besides my geog/global studies modules planning that burnt 3-4 of my nights and days heh but that was for the greater good :')
For the second and third week of holidays, I went out almost everyday, meeting friends that I didn't see over the school term and also...CAPT peeps whom I've been separated from for barely 2 weeks HAHA yes we are overly attached and it is so heart-warming to actually feel like this. Seriously I can go on forever about CAPT, but it's truly the best decision and thing that happened to me probably in my entire life :')
Monday, 12 Dec
Went CUCLING with baes hehe proud of Seanne who improved so much in one day HAHAH :) Thank you all for trusting me and sorry for breaking that trust HAHAHAHA omg but we'll never know if we never tried that THERE'S NO SHORTCUT BACK FROM DOUBLE HELIX BRIDGE TO ECP. We had to go one big round to Kallang Stadium and even had to carry our bikes up the bridge to avoid an even longer path OMG. Cycled for 2hours (more like raced back) to the bike shop and we were damn lucky that we weren't charged extra despite exceeding the time limit for more than 30minutes!!

    

Wednesday, 14 Dec

Do you know that Eatigo is amazing? I know this sounds super "auntie" but hey, who doesn't love discounts on FOOD right? We booked the 4pm timeslot for Marche @ Suntec and we got 50% off!!!!! 50% off on ala carte plus splitting the bill among 3 people = FEASTING TIME HOHO (looking forward to Tuesday heheheheehe round 2) :D Time to use Eatigo peeps. Make your tummy a happy tummy and save your wallet from crying :) 

   

Thursday, 15 Dec

We were supposed to have a SAC meeting for week 2/3 welcome dinner next sem...but it ended up as a movie outing :P Germaine told us that Singtel users had 50% off movie tix so we rushed to the Cathay haha but when we reached there they were giving out free tix to Rogue One!!!!! OMG. Always thought that Star Wars was fascinating although I never watched any of the movies or read the books...Probably next sem :') After the movie ended at 9, we bought Makisan and had our meeting at SOTA and went home about 12.

 

Friday, 16 Dec 

Never thought I'll meet someone off Tinder again but I did LMAO. But it was a meal not a date la. Just glad that I made the first move to talk to him when normally I don't initiate convos HAHA I was really too bored that day. Sad that we had to bond over a tragic topic lol but thankful to have met you! Never stayed up late till 4am talking to someone so many times before about anything and everything. I really love getting to know genuine people (and understand the different MBTIs). We are almost complete opposites and perhaps that's how we are still talking now even after so many weeks. My first ESTJ friend (Seanne is ISTJ the true complete opposite of me haha) but this just proves that the test isn't 100% reliable since we are similar in so many ways eg. morals / way we talk. We may stop talking soon since school is starting soon, with me overloading and your final sem before being attached to a hosp everyday omg med life is tough but I'll always be here if you need a listening ear (even if we don't meet again haha). Ok time to delete tinder once I find kaikai and superlike him HAHAHAHA. 

Monday, 19 Dec 

"I really believe some things are meant to happen". Went out with dan to buy gifts for our respective comms but we ended up not buying anything wth hahahha. I was rlly torn between going out for dinner with him, or with the guys to upper thomson or with parents at marche. But since I already ate marche last week and I jioed dan first, we went Saizeriya for omnomnoms hehe. Really love our friendship la like we can openly tease and care for each other, but you know nothing is going on lmao. Angmoh and sk and benn and km and xk too. Y'all truly the bros I never had and I'm so thankful I met y'all <3 Anyways we tried to find exotic/weird/interesting gifts but most of them were above $10 :( so we gave up and I convinced dan to go to the library to find korean textbooks with me and he reluctantly came and complained that he won't talk to me for 30 days (because I borrowed 3 books, 1 book = 10 days HAHA) if liverpool lost that night (THANK GOODNESS FOR THE LAST MINUTE GOAL HAHAHAHA). Other than that it was a meh day. 

  

Tuesday, 20 Dec

WEW impromptu dinner with gan hehe we were supposed to eat marche  @suntec but we were late by 5minutes oops. Reserved some jap restaurant at Esplanade and we had a feast :> BUT IT WAS MEH. No wonder it needs to promote itself on Eatigo. Even Watami is better oops. Paid $39 (after 50%) for everything in the pic below. I feel that we could have eaten a nicer feast at chomp chomp honestly. Walked to GBTB to burn off the fats and hobo-ed outside MBS afterwards with a drink hehe love peaceful moments like this with you <3 !! LOOKING FORWARD TO OUR CYCLING DATE NEXT TUES :D 

   

Wednesday, 22 Dec

Floorball friendly + went to visit Levis at KTPH.

Went for floorball only because more than 50% of the peeps are from roc HAHAHA but it was fun :) Made a new friend, Zi Rui!! And realised Fu Kai looks scarily similar to one of the seniors from nyjc....Lost 5-7 but it was not bad considering that was the first time we played together as a team :> We went to 925 to eat our dinner after 

 

         

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Week 1 of Dec Hols

Hahahahahahah first week of holidays gone just like that OH NO. All I did this week was to repay my sleep debt haha plus catch up on my kdramas and planning modules (took me two full days and I've not confirmed my next sem mods yet this is draining). Feels good to be home though hehe it rlly feels like I'm a kid again, with my mum buying my favourite breakfasts that I've not eaten in 4.5months 😭 and my dad settling all my meals this week hehe ❤️❤️❤️

Got a new fav breakfast too!!! Some atas bread shop but the pastries my mum bought back was only $1.90??? $1.90 is ex for a normal pastry la but this one atas ley WOOHOO the cheapskate in me is satisfied HHAHAHAH (tastebuds too yummmm)!!

 

 

Anyways I'm sorting out the mods to take for next few sems because global studies is such a burden zz plus doing a second major in geog means I must plan carefully to maximise the double counting up to 16MCs D: Still need to overload like 3-4 sems if I don't get to do GE3230A though :(
Modules for Second Major in Geography:
1. GE1101E (Faculty Exposure) Y2S1
2. GE2101 (UE) Y2S1
3. GE3230A (UE) Summer hols / GE2215 + GE3k mod
4. GE2229 (UE) -Tropical env group Y1S2
5. GE2228 (UE) -Tropical env group
6. GE2202 (GL Theme 2/4) - P/E/S group Y1S2
7. GE3219 (GL Region 1/4) - S/C group Y2S1
8. GE3201/GE3235 (GL Theme 3/4) - P/E/S group
9. GE2218 (GL Theme 3/4) - S/C group
10. GE4102 (GL Level 4 Theme)
11. GE4217 (GL Level 4 Theme)

As for modules to take next sem...
1. GER1000 (ULR)
2. UTC1409 (ULR-UTCP)
3. GL2101 (C)
4. GE2229 (UE1)
5. LAK2201 (UE2)
6. UTW2001J (ULR-UTCP) / GE2202 (GL Theme 2/4)
Still conflicted between IEM2 and GE2202 because IEM2 is harder to score (hence the s/u can be used hehe) while GE2202 is content heavy (and so far this sem there's only 2 other content heavy mods). Shall see how it goes ba sighhhhhh. Looking forward to a busy week HEHE no more rotting at home and kdramaing pong :) 

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Y1S1 2016/17 Reflections

My first semester in NUS has officially ended, with me typing this on the last day I'm living in my room, in CAPT for this sem. It has been a rollercoaster ride this sem, with too many things happening that eventually overwhelmed me, and I've realised that I have so much space for personal development, so much more to learn and to achieve. Since it's a free S/U sem, the stress faced this sem will probably be nothing compared to the next few sems ahead, which is a horrifying thought tbh. I've never studied so hard consistently in my life before. A levels and O levels is nothing compared to university, you really can just slack your way through 1.5 years, and for JC, just scrape past promos and blocks, and work your ass off starting from june, you'll eventually get to some university. But university is a whole new level. Whoever said that uni was easier, that A levels was the worst and once we got past A levels it'll be an easy ride, was lying. The timetable in uni may be damn slack (at least for FASS students) but the workload is truly insane. It's just deadlines after deadlines, one paper after another to write, at least that's what this sem felt like for me. Shan't brood on what's over, plus I'm only aiming CAP 4/5 to get second upper honours. Everyone has different goals in university, and I'm willing to trade flawless grades for average grades with invaluable memories. I've always aspired to do well for major exams, but never exceeded my own expectations before. Be it L1R5 of nett 5 for O levels, or 82.5 rank points for A levels, my grades were always only slightly above average and within my expectations (sadly or luckily, I really don't know since I would have had to tradeoff something for better grades and a different path in life). All I know is that I'm happy where I am now, and trying to make the best out of this. I'll just have to constantly remind myself next sem to work hard everyday because uni isn't a place where you can leave revision till the last minute and expect to do average, it just won't happen. Once you can't keep up with your workload, it'll just snowball and you'll be trapped deep in that avalanche of assignments and readings. Can't do much about my grades this sem except to wisely use my S/Us when results are out in 16 days so, shall reflect on the non-academic life for this sem in this post hehe.
I guess this post will be mainly about CAPT. Honestly, I've never been so happy in my life before. Perhaps it's because I've always been physically alone as the only child and did not have a sister or brother around me 24/7. My close friends have always been there for me and I'm very thankful for y'all for that :') But having close friends physically around you 24/7 is an entirely different thing. It felt draining at first, having to socialise the whole day, with sleeping being the only alone time I had. From the moment I walk out of my room when I wake up, I'll meet people in the toilet who are also washing up and preparing to go to lessons, then I'll eat breakfast with whoever's at the house table and go for lessons after that. After lessons, its back to CAPT and nuaing (socialising) in the lounge, dinner together and back at the lounge to do work or HTHT/play games till late at night. Also, I only had to go out of Utown 2 days a week this sem, which pretty much explains my extremely lapsup attire unless I went to arts HAHA.
Anyways, to conclude this sem in 3 words, it has been: an eye-opening, fun and fulfilling 18 weeks.
To start off, we had the freshmen orientation camp, and I was in Caspian. Although the OG is the least bonded one (no denying that lol) among the 3 OGs from my house, I feel that the people are the nicest ones in the whole house too HAHA. People that are always busy their own stuff too though, hence we aren't that bonded I guess? But still feels damn homey when I meet them during meals though :)

thank you ROC for the amazing memories, for being my light in the darkness this sem <3 

  

ROC bonding during week 1 aka games and throwing food dye everywhere

Okay pong got lazy to type long paragraphs so just gonna spam photos HEHE :) 

Formal Dinner

 

#ROCPRIDE <3 

 

Mid-Autumn Festival

 

 

 

Can't remember when was the last time I held a lantern or played with sparklers hence I'm sure glad I went for this event hehe :) THE FOOD WAS AWESOME TOO THANKS HOUSE COMM FOR YOUR AMAZING EFFORT <3 

ING Dragon Boat, Dodgeball and Floorball

The only 4 y1s out of 20 dragon boaters :) Idek what made me sign up last minute but I'm sure glad I did! 

 

3RD PLACE!!!!! 

 

I suck at dodgeball seriously I can only dodge not throw balls ahahahahha LAST place HAHA but yay got to know minghui, greatest takeaway from dodgeball ING hehe :') 

 

 

Last but not least, FLOORBALL ING <3 Really didn't want to drag the team down cuz y'all had so much potential for 1st place. Didn't do much to help but at least we got 2nd guys <3 !!!!! Best team I've ever played with for any sport, thanks for watching out for each other and constantly subbing in and out when we noticed that people were getting tired on the court. Really hope that I can balance my crazy workload next sem and join y'all for trainings :') 

#ROCSOLID but not roc bottom for captain's ball <3 !! 

SAC: Bonding Day and Haunted House

 

 

 

 

 

My second family in CAPT :') Was quite sad that I didn't get into house comm but it has been a real blessing in disguise. Thank you house heads for seeing that I was more suited for other comms too since I was hesitant to join house comm because I was interested in others too. Thank you Krittin and Esther for telling me to bring my positive (actually its just crazy vibes) vibes into SAC. Love how weird and crazy we are when we are together. Like I said during the end-of-sem review, I love how everyone is so unique in their own ways, and we just magically come together to make an awesome team with great team dynamics :) I chose to lead the Haunted House event because I wanted to work with EXA that was saturated with roc people haha but thank you all for helping out with the posters and videos, for the input and feedback yall gave to make the event a success. Thank you Krittin for helping me do so much stuff when I was having hell week with 3 assignment deadlines. Being the only ROC person in SAC was also a blessing in disguise I guess, since I got to know Dora so much better cuz she was also the only Tulpar in SAC HAHA. Thank you for studying tgt at ERC with me, and the HTHTs in your room :) Really glad that I'm done with my event and just have to help out with the rest of the events next sem, but still gonna do my best whenever I can :) 5 events next sem is no joke, but I believe we can do this together hehe #SAClove <3 !!!!!

Halloween Dinner

 

Didn't have a costume so I uber-ed back home to get my JC uniform for me and Seanne LOL, not as much effort as the rest but hey, we tried! HAHHAHA need to step up our game next year :P First time attending a Halloween event and it was amazing because of ROC. The food was pretty amazing too for once LOL.
Xuan Kai & Brenda's Bali Dance Performance

 

 One of the rare times I finally went for someone's performance haha need to do it more often next sem and support them up your game pong!! Also the day stupid sk became a ladle and stirred shit when I commented one of the guys was cute wth lol and brenda brought the guy for me to take a photo with him. IS IT MOST EMBARRASSING MOMENT OF MY LIFE? Maybe eh hahahaa. Supper after that was awesome too hehe thank you yr4s + kahyong for the treat!!!! 

ROC Open Mic 

 

ROC Open Mic where we discovered so many hidden talents hoho glad that I chose to pangseh my study buddy at ERC for this HAHHAHA (k i'm sorry if you are reading this oops) From the HSM songs to the epic slut dance by the 4 guys, thanks for making the night such a wonderful one. Once again, thanks house comm for the welfare!!!!! I think house events is the reason why I got so fat LOL those free food eg. green tea and ice cream seriously no go for calories eh but still ate them since it was so shiok to nomnom and enjoy the performances HAHA

 

My rockabye babies <3 So so thankful for the night we talked for 2hours outside bucks when we were only supposed to stay for 30minutes HAHAH the weather was too good to leave, and the company was even better <3 Thanks for being my pillars of support in CAPT and doing most shit together and sacrificing to eat meals together and making sure we are all okay hehe :') 

 

UBEREATS night HAHA cuz we are all lazy af gluttons. Freaking funny number game too I cannot help but love yall over and over again <3 

 

 

The first house event ever hehe CHOCO FONDUE NIGHT WAS AWESOME although I was still sad I was not in house comm planning this event I think heh. 

 

I LOVE MY LEVEL 5 BUDDIES no other level I rather be on, love every single one of you so much <3 

 

Ever since NYJC...I realised that fire drills are for photo-taking and bonding :P 

T4 USS HHN!!!!! 

I was really sad because thought I really couldn't make it since CAPT's Haunted House was the next day and by right I should be present the night before during the setting up. But thank goodness we already finished most of the setting up on Wednesday and my comm told me to go for it since I already bought the ticket before I joined the comm. It was truly a crazy and fun-filled night and we even saw Joel who was working there. Has been long fish! Also went for my first blue rollercoaster experience omg we queued for 1.5hours for 1min? But WOOHOO IT WAS AWESOME and I can't wait to go again but broke af la I don't think it will be anytime soon :( Sorry to the guys whom we just anyhow grabbed in the haunted houses but I really feared for my life wthell paying to scare the shit out of myself lol but it was fun because it's with yall heh <3 

End of sem dumzi dumziiii @Baliza 

Probably the only time I was really ever gone lol I thought I would never get drunk but I guess I did. I can't remember what I did from 230-3am and I'm so paiseh after I knew about it to even type what I did here haha so nope. At least I didn't make out with random strangers right unlike the guy in front HAHHAHHAA rabak af. Thank you all for taking care of me, when I was supposed to take care of the first-timers LOL. I feel like a Wilson now hahahhah oops. Swee choon after that was a mistake because I puked some of the food out after reaching CAPT :/ Can't believe I got to know a bitch through this after living together on the same floor for 18 weeks HAHA but better late than never I guess. LOOKING FORWARD TO MORE FUN NEXT SEM GUYSSSSSS 11/01 ;) Thank you and sorry to William whose chin kept getting hit by my head HAHAHA thank you Si Jing for taking care of the girls too Y'ALL ARE FINE GENTLEMEN :')

To end off this post, I'll do some dedications to some people who have made my sem truly memorable here if anyone of yall happen to find this even though idk how HAHA probably copy and paste these dedications and send yall on 31 dec? 

(In alphabetical order, not of importance heh) 

Benn

 

The one who always snaps emo stuff after 3am, who can sing korean songs well and loves K.Will too, thank you for being such a calm yet caring presence. Thank you for the times we listened to K.Will's songs together at 3am while I was chionging readings and you were just chilling LOL. Really admire how much you expect from yourself and willing to work hard to achieve your goals. You are one of the nicest guys I've ever met, and I really hope you don't change because of one person. Your true love will accept you for who you are okie. Hoping that you will feel better soon although I know it's hard now, stay safe and warm, and remember that we are always here for you. Thank you for always looking out for my emo snaps too HAHAHA (and hoping that you don't come back as a fat boy after 1 month of not gymming I think shaoherng would have caught up with your buff bod LOL) #bennhanforhouseic #bennhanformanhunt!!!!!!

Cheryl Lee

  

The one whom I may have a legit girl crush on because you're too adorable and just overflowing with love and care <3 Got to know you when we were in all 3 INGs together somehow when we actually only signed up for the same dragon boating ing, but with me replacing your afternoon dodgeball games and replacing Jes for floorball, I got the chance to know you so much more and it's a blessing in disguise. Thank you for always smiling your brightest smile when you see me and giving me the biggest and cuddliest hugs hehe :') I hope your cheerfulness never dies and continue lighting up everyone's life around you babe, you are truly one of the few girls I really admire and feel like you deserve all the happiness and love in the world. It's amazing how much happier I feel just by seeing you (is that why girl crush??) and I wish that your spark will never fade <3 Already missing you and can't wait to see you ball of happiness soon hehe stay safe and have fun in BKK :')

Daniel

 

 

LOL how should I even start? No one except our close friends know that we are close because you don't have social media (which human doesn't have instagram/twitter/telegram in 2k16????????? this house head lor) and I never revealed your identity on my snaps too because I don't want shit to get stirred. I really don't know what I ever did for you to always be there for me even for the smallest things, but you are definitely one of my greatest takeaways from CAPT. Thank you for everything that you did for me, be it waking me up for lessons, or dabaoing breakfast for me when I oversleep, or even annoying me 24/7 with your burns because you're just too bored and love disturbing people tsk. But you are truly one of the most selfless people I've ever met. I'll never forget the time when you cycled all the way to Arts at freaking 2am to deliver your friend's assignment because the only available printer at that time was in CAPT, when you just injured both your knees a few hours before during Haunted House (dumb shit idek how both knees could bleed after hitting the table, tall for nothing tsk). And you still went to dabao supper for me and your boy toys, before you realised you should just call for delivery because there were just too many other orders HAHAHA. Thank you for trespassing into my room (house head doesn't mean my room belongs to you oi) when I was out studying and putting snacks all over the place and the stupid punctuation quiz HAHA. Thank you for buying me a freaking cucumber and packet of tissues when you promised me a box of tissue with cucumber extract. Thank you for making me laugh during boring econs tutorials when you added me into the fake house heads chat and scaring the shit out of me the first time, annoying the shit out of me the subsequent weeks LOL. Thank you for buying food for me every weekend before you come back and noticing when I'm being an emo nemo and being a listening ear although you can't give advice for shit. Thank you for so many other things you did but I may not have remembered because it's really too much to list. Thank you for being your(annoying)self and always putting others before you. Thank you for everything I really appreciate it!! Here's to more annoyingness next sem!!!!!!!!! YOUR FINAL SEM MUAHAHAHA ok I'll treasure it :')

HuiEe, Siying and YiYan

 

OMG YALL SEXY NURSES are not sexy la but cute af, every single one of you :) CUTEST NURSES EVER hehe!! Got to know yall better after we ran together hehe thank you for running with this slowpoke when yall fit af also haha what you 3 scholars cannot do pls enlighten me???? HAHAHA thanks for being so warm and friendly everytime I see you all, here's to more runs and dinners together QTpies <3 !!!!!

Lenard

 

Oi. To describe you in 3 phrases: resting-bitch face, forever sleeping everywhere and anywhere BUT YOUR ROOM, and ok an awesome floorball leader la. One of my few only child buddies in roc too but we loanly (lonely) children not!!!!! Thank you for convincing me to join your ING floorball team to replace Jes, where I got to know so many people better too, including you!!! My first impression of you was a cold and quiet boy, but I'm glad you opened up to us and show your RBF in the lounge everyday!!!!!!! HAHAHA you're really hardworking and smart so all the best for CAP 5 !! Here's to more HTHTs and runs tgt next sem too :)

Levis

 

Levis gege~~ The giant teddy bear to me ahahhaha your name always reminds me of levis jeans LOL. Thank you for all the midnight runs together, motivating me and walking with me when this noob can't run more than 4km and HTHTing the way back. Thank you for the breakfasts and snacks you cooked for us, and always being so so nice to us. OH THANK YOU FOR THE CHEESE TARTS YOU JUST BROUGHT BACK FM MALAYSIA ;) soon to be maybe???? HAHAHA being a ladle and stirring your shit is fun because I know you won't mind and the girl isn't in CAPT hoho. We were only getting close but you're gonna leave for exchange soon (omg I didn't intend for that pun), but please take care and skype us regularly <3 gonna miss you so much and your absence will be haunting me throughout next sem whenever I walk past your room :( Take care and looking forward to you coming back to us during the 2nd half of 2017!!

Jeslin

RABAK JIEJIE. OMG. AMAZING WHAT JUST ONE NIGHT CAN BRING EH life is really funny sometimes. If I can call someone a bitch it means I'm really comfortable with you and love ya. Can't believe it took us a night at the club to realise that we have the same level of bitchy-ness HAHAHA fking rude and sarcastic but ily cuz we really have the same frequency and you took care of the gone me at the club who hugged you throughout the night HAHAHAHA. Meimei loves you ok don't anyhow scold meimei anymore you bitch. Yes we may have found each other vvvvvvv late into the sem (during the last week lol) but it's okay we have next 3 sems to go pls don't knock on my door everytime after your shower next time tmd and let's do more weird shit together next sem and 11/01 WOOHOOOOOOO take care of me again pls hehehe. Here's to christmas shopping soon and more memories to be made over the next few sems left!! Better late than never to find someone like you :') I JUST REMEMBERED SOMETHING. Gan was the one who told me about you at first. I still remember how I was kinda scared of you at the start cuz you seemed like a bitch (which you are, but I ALSO AM HAHA) but she told me you are nice and I should get to know you better, obv I didn't trust her words cuz she only interacted once with you ahaha but now I know why she kind of introduced me to you. Guess she saw me in you, another bitch HAHAHAH OMG dying. IT'S FATED MAN. You sit beside her for your nursing exams somemore wthell. Looking forward to whatever's in store for us next sem man rlly. Has only been 1 week but I love ya already bitch I guess I found my female soulmate ahahaha k this is cheesy bye.

Jon PONG

 

MY BROTHER FROM ANOTHER MOTHER!!! Or is it my real long-lost brother hmmmm LOL and the only other pong we know is a mutual friend what is this. Thank you for always being you because you are just so awesome because you are another PONG. HAHAHA kidding but really bruh idek how you balance medicine life and so many activities in capt????? Every time I see you I question myself what am I doing with life being a potato pong while you are such a successful pong HAHA. Thank you for always adding medicine stuff you learnt into conversations it's really entertaining HAHAHA and always making sure if this sis is okay. Stay happy with Ariel omg yall are couple goals and stay sane bruh love ya <3 

Kang Ming

(look at shikai's face at the side LOLOLOL)
Eh thank you for being my #1 snapchat buddy????????? LOL your jokes and puns really make my life so much better because you are a joke yourself HAHA ok jk but really appreciate you bringing laughter and joy to us!!! jiayou for biz rag next year PD!!! Hope you don't become a phantom next sem lol idk how we got closer but I'm glad we did. You are also damn straightforward but it's okay I accept you for it HAHA cuz I know it's just your personality and you don't intend to hurt people although sometimes it may hurt others eh. Looking forward to more funny shit from you next sem ethan woohoo stop getting raped at bali clubs LOL and hope that your flashing green status will change soon eh joker ;)

Ming Hui

 

 

My 2nd meal buddy and study buddy and do-everything-together, always-together-never-apart buddy  AHAHAHAHHA bitch you need to stop tickling me. And I totally regret telling you who I felt was my ideal type because you keep reminding me about it CB when you supposed to be helping me get over it oi. But I've already come to accept it HAHAHAH Thank you for your warm hugs too hehehehe but rlly. Tickling needs to stop ok. Thanks for always asking if I'm okay and doing weird shit with me although you judge me I know you are equally weird (molester moon face teehee). Hope that you will achieve your goal of CAP 5 this sem crazy girl who topped your iem class for the first two papers!!!!!! You can do it hehe glad to have found such a wonderful friend like you here <3 SEE YOU SOON JIE DRIVE US OUT WOOHOO EGGCITED!!!!!!!

Nicholas the ang moh

 

WE WERE CLOSE BRUH but we still are, I'm just subtly caring for you ok idiot. You'll find your happiness someday, stop saying your heart is black etcetc. Stop smoking also you fag. I'll never forget the time when I thought you were alone and gone, so I went down to pick you at freaking 430am (when I had dragonboat ING at 7 and only slept 1hour wth) after you clubbed, and you and merci mok smoked there and kenna caught by Dr Tan CB HAHAHA I rlly feared for my life then ok because I didn't know he was such a nice person HAHAHHAA but always willing to be your maid because you were always there to offer legit advice and be a listening ear. Thank you for being real and shoving reality into my face, asking me the most serious and important questions I always try to avoid. Thank you for letting me shamelessly tag along to Holland Village for a free carbonara and a ride home HAHA. You should appreciate me for pei-ing you when you smoke because I absolutely detest smoke or smokers but I'm willing to sacrifice for you eh idk why I can do it too honestly so stop calling me trash and low IQ and short you fag its just you are gigantic ok I'm not THAT short although I'm..pretty short. HAHAHAHA. Miss the times when you come into the lounge and talk german rubbish with that convincing accent haha miss you disturbing me also wthell but I'm glad you changed for the better and cut that maggie hair off your head eh. Although you still can change more by quitting smoking HAHA. Stay safe in Yunnan and not looking forward to smelling you and your ciggs next sem again fml but I'm always here for you bro you are loved you annoying shit. Glad you're enjoying yourself there and that you are happy :') Looking forward to the day you return to your hot bod and handsome self too although it might take years to happen hmm HAHAHA :P

Seanne

 

 

My meal buddy and study buddy and do-everything-together, always-together-never-apart buddy <3 We are like peanut butter and jelly, salt and pepper and a pair of chopsticks HAHA. Definitely my greatest takeaway from CAPT (as of now hehe) :) Thank you so so much for everything you've done for me; waking me up, eating meals together, making me drag my lazy ass to study at yale and always watching out for me and keeping me sane. You are so focused and know what you want in life, and that's really a major learning point for me and a daily reminder to get my shit together haha. Thank you for being one of the strongest pillars of support I need in CAPT. It was really fate that we clicked once we met (thank you bts and kdrama) and not afraid to share our deepest secrets with each other. Thank you for trusting me with your problems, and also being my listening ear. Thank you for making sacrifices for me, be it letting me have the big cubicle when we shower tgt or eating earlier when I'm hungry. Thank you for making me realise the extent I will go for the people I truly care about too. I'll be your part-time boyfriend/girlfriend in CAPT since Toby isn't as physically near to you as me here ok HAHA I don't need to say much more hehe we will get through next sem together babe <3 SEE YOU SOON AND REST WELL you really worked hard this sem :) [lol toby is another indicator that we were fated to meet hahaha what are the chances of that someone I met at SJAB camp a few years ago is your boyfriend omg]

Shi Kai

 

I think we got closer because of nic LOL I will never forget the day you called me ponggie and I was like .___. and you said nic told you about me (I still wonder what he said) so if I'm nic's friend, it means that I'm your friend too HAHA. Thanks for always happily calling me ponggie when you see me and reminding me to be happy when we see each other HAHA stop being a rabak fkboi la law student pls maintain abit okie??? thanks for feeding my eyes candy although the actual products were quite disappointing AHAHA but thanks for being such a fun person to be around and appreciating what others do for you. Here's to doubling the amount of alcohol bottles next sem and getting to know you better too bruh :) [I will love you in another universe too bruh I HEARD THAT HAHA, and perhaps everyone else in this post too haha]

Tammy

 

My physical touch + quality time buddy HAHAHAHA I feel so comfortable with you and you're another girl I really admire here HEHE love your confidence and accent but you need to eat more and regularly ok tsk. Thank you for getting bucks 1 for 1 with me, your tight hugs and always checking if I'm okay too. Thank you for always being there when I need a hug and someone to rant or talk too! Looking forward to making more memories tgt next sem babe I'm always here for you too <3

Xuan Kai

MA NOCTURNAL BUDDY!!!!! But your sleep cycle more fucked up than mine ok seriously bless your next sem because you need to wake up for breakfast already and go for lessons AHAHAHA no more sleeping till 12pm you owl. Maybe one day you will be the one waking me up instead of me waking you up for a change eh??? HAHA. I'll never forget our first conversation which was you telling me about the different clubs and their ratings before I went for my first clubbing experience LOL you rabak boy. Thank you for always getting through the night with me and chionging your play writing ahahha your efficiency is really damn good though gotta learn from you. Stop drinking so much (16 consecutive days is as good as stabbing your liver sua) and sleep EARLIER (easy say hard to do I know but you don't have a choice next sem anyway hahaha) night owl. Gonna miss having a night owl in the lounge with me every night but we both need to screw our body clocks back for good eh. BLESS OUR BODY CLOCKS HAHA and your liver. But here's to more clubbing tgt next sem too keke :)

Just some more random photos hehehe~

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